A Day in the Life of Me

I wanted to share what I have been doing lately in glassblowing. I have been having so much fun with glass and my pieces keep getting better. Monday night I am going to make the girls each a glass, Karleigh wants blue and Shea wants red. They want them for the bathroom to match their toothbrushes and their stools. :) Karleigh always says "Beautiful mommy!" with anything that I have made in glassblowing. My favorite of all of these pieces is the first. I am most proud of that one. :) I think I'm going to keep that one for myself and the rest are probably going to be Christmas gifts. I have also made paperweights, ornaments, and a witches ball but I didn't want to unpack them to just take pictures of them. So here is almost all of the vases I have done as well as one of the pumkins I have made.

This one below this text is standing crooked because there is some glass at the bottom that I need to polish off. When I am done coldworking it, it will stand up straight.

Since I go to school during the day on Tuesdays and Thursdays the girls have to go to a sitter. Sitter really isn't the word for the two wonderful ladies who take care of my girls. They are more like wonderful caregivers. I always feel safe, comfortable, and relieved when I walk out the doors of their homes to go to school. The girls just love to go to Lori's and Angie's houses. They talk about it all the time. I know that both Lori and Angie love my girls and that they treat them with love and respect. It gives me such comfort to know that my girls will be taken care of the way they should be. They get to play like crazy with their friends Zoe, Ellie Jo, and Caitlyn. They get to go outside and play at the park and in Lori's awesome backyard. I am just so thankful for these two women. The make my school a lot less stressful because I can concentrate on what I need to do in school rather than having to wonder if my children are being treated the way they should be. Yes, my girls test them both A LOT. But I know that they will be disciplined in the right way. I just want to thank you both so much for being so great to my two babies. I love you both so much and I really appreciate everything you do for me. If I don't express it enough, I am sorry. I hope you truly know how much I appreciate you both. Again, thank you gals so much for being my saviors this school semester, I appreciate you both so much!



Here is Karleigh, Shealyn, Ellie Jo, and Zoe (counterclockwise).

I want that friend. That true friend that you can talk to about anything at any time. I want someone to listen to me and just understand how I am feeling. I want to feel like there is another woman out there who would do anything she could for me and me in return. I thought I had those types of friends, but I don't really. I want a close friend that I can talk to about my frustrations and accomplishments. I want to feel loved by a true friend. Everywhere I look it seems like everyone else out there has that one TRUE friend who will be there for you no matter what. That person who will tell you the truth even if it hurts. I have been hurt so badly in the past by people who I thought were true friends. I feel like I am afraid to try to "get" a closer friend in a fear that it will happen all over. Also, all of those friends seem to be taken. I am a very different person, maybe that is why I can't find that person. Is it me? Do I have an unattractive personality? I feel like I may, but I don't know what to do to change that. I don't know if I should change. I feel like I am changing, and I know that I have changed dramatically in the past year. Why can't I find that one person who will accept me for exactly who I am?

I am a sexually explicit, loud mouth, opinionated, loving, emotional, wonderful, don't give a damn what others think about me, tired, motherly, fantastic, kick ass, fun, creative, messy woman. I can't be all of me around every person I know. I don't really know anyone that I can be exactly who I am around (except for my darling Nathan). I want a woman who understands me just like Nathan. I have my mom and mil, but I want a woman friend who isn't related to me. I want what others have, that one true friend.

Me, "Karleigh you need to eat your chicken sandwich. You haven't even touched it!"

Karleigh, {touches sandwich} "I touched it mommy!"

What a smarty pants.

I'm unhappy.

I don't like being unhappy.

I wish things could always go great, but it is never the case.

Why can't I always be happy?

Why are there always things to make me unhappy?

I am very unhappy.